i wish there was something that could make me go, but no, i guess i've lost that motivation to travel all the way and play tirelessly under the hot sun. there's nothing to work towards now, and all that's been happening has made me feel as if i was just there to be made use of. i dont think i'd give it up totally though; i just dont know what to do with it now. yes, i miss trainings, sweating like crazy but loving it, running non-stop even when i felt so tired. i guess going back to those days of solo playing isnt as easy as i thought.
time will tell me
Monday, May 21, 2007
11:00 PM
what a tournament draw we've gotten! yi rong/eliza are playing against allysa/maricelle. it's going to be really interesting lol. i hope they play like they did in rp and during the vj match respectively! it'll be like WOAH. but no matter who wins, i think we'll all go down to support the pair cause the next opponent's against christine fong and her partner. =)
i'll be playing against my opponent whom i met during our rp friendlies, provided she wins her first match. i lost to her 6-3 the last time! i guess i need to just play the game without fearing the opponent this time. hussle! i'll enjoy my last spex age group match! =)
time will tell me
Sunday, May 20, 2007
12:43 PM
woke up at 6am this morning to find myself with a fever of 38.3 degrees. the 2nd fever i've gotten within a short period of time, considering i seldom fall ill. i hope erica's doing fine too =) i'm still feeling quite weak even though i slept for so long. ahhh and i had to miss church =( i think they're doing the singing thing now with uncle matthew.
anyway we had a great time at the botanical gardens yesterday =D bible talk and then egyptian baseball! i dont know why it's called egyptian but the edited version of baseball with the running around in circles and using a spongy bat and ball was definitely as fun =) the slight fever at that time seemed to be gone while we were playing! hahaha i even ate ice-cream =p
i'm supposed to play tennis with yi rong in the evening later too but i guess i cant. many more weekends during this break still! =) i cant wait for many things during the hols - the mini teens retreat and baby-sitting, practising with yng yng for my viola exam, studying =/, hahaha i've got to learn to love my notes. ang! remember our goal of the top 2 positions! haha
time will tell me
Thursday, May 17, 2007
11:45 PM
im afraid i'll drift. or have i already done so? temptations are so strong, i find myself constantly struggling to keep out. Lord, please be my guide.
time will tell me
Monday, May 07, 2007
11:28 PM
tennis tmr! (hopefully) and on thurs and on sat. i should be going back to spex just to visit coach and the boys and play with them again =) hopefully i wont be too rusty this week.
anyway, string practices and performances have been good =D im not sure if i want to continue playing there still though.. i've got to plan and stick to my plans strictly from now on. and somehow find my motivation to study hard.
jac came over to study today! was quite quiet when we started cause everyone in the house was, but once my mom went to the gym and my bro to his friend's house, everything was less tense. hahaha at least it helped us start studying seriously. but it was nice talking about stuff and catching up with each other and wanting to plan our studying days in june =) jogging together before each studying session sounds fun haha but we've to really do it!
well, school again tmr. i shall reallyyyyyyy try not to fall asleep during lectures and tutorials. and i hope that i can still run tmr for 2.4 lol. i havent run for such a long time. cant wait for fri! =)
time will tell me
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
1:50 PM
im coughing so badly and im running for some heats tmr. and im supposed to take the 5 stations thing too. ahhhh i just want to get well and play tennis =(
time will tell me
.the narrow path.
"I tell you the truth,
until heaven and earth disappear,
not the smallest letter,
not the least stroke of a pen,
will by any means disappear until everything is accomplished."
