i wish there was something that could make me go, but no, i guess i've lost that motivation to travel all the way and play tirelessly under the hot sun. there's nothing to work towards now, and all that's been happening has made me feel as if i was just there to be made use of. i dont think i'd give it up totally though; i just dont know what to do with it now. yes, i miss trainings, sweating like crazy but loving it, running non-stop even when i felt so tired. i guess going back to those days of solo playing isnt as easy as i thought.
time will tell me
.the narrow path.
"I tell you the truth,
until heaven and earth disappear,
not the smallest letter,
not the least stroke of a pen,
will by any means disappear until everything is accomplished."