A potential sudden surge of freedom from studying and being confined to my desk really floods me with so many ideas about what to do after the As - crazy thoughts of going for faraway holidays, going shopping like nobody's business, working multiple jobs to finance the earlier fantasy, etc; it all leads me back to square one. I fail to remember what i really aim for - to grow so much more spiritually as i finally have the time to sit back and reflect on the past months. Things i haven't done for a long time i cast aside; yet i place trivial things the world deems as 'having a life' on the top of my list.
I can't help but think of Proverbs 16:9, which says "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps". I've got to learn to rely and have faith in what He has planned, each little step along the way. Planning it all my way is certainly not going to work out as well as i think it to be.So instead of flinching at the thought of putting aside time for bible studies, bible talks, spending time with sisters, and what-nots that's actually to my benefit, I pray for myself to be more initiative and fired up for the Lord. =)
For now, I should get back to my notes and do God proud through the As! (that includes discpline in food intake while I'm at it as well =p)
time will tell me
.the narrow path.
"I tell you the truth,
until heaven and earth disappear,
not the smallest letter,
not the least stroke of a pen,
will by any means disappear until everything is accomplished."
